I'm So Lonesome I Could Cry...

Not only is this the title of a classic Hank Williams song, but my feelings lately. I have found myself longing for friendships and meaningful connections that just are not happening. It's frustrating to want somwthing

I Want to Cry. Like A Baby. The End.

This beautiful little girl is Anna Lucia...my perfect niece. She is crying because she is a baby and she can. It's adorable. If I could cry the way I feel like crying, not so cute. :) I am frustrated. Nothing really happened to make me feel this way, just overwhelmed and feeling sorry for myself, I guess.  I think this dreary weather, craving for a chocolate covered doughnut and in general feeling lonely just all jumped on me at once. I am at seminary, trying to follow God’s call on my life and nothing seems to be going right. I am overwhelmed and stressed about work, I didn’t do as well in one class as I had hoped and I have made no friends. I am too busy and desperately need friends to hang out with, but my schedule is so busy. I either don’t have time or just want to hang out at my house and be alone. It is an awful thing to want to have friends, but also want to be alone. I feel like I want two things at once that can't work out that way, because they're opposing. Ugh. 

I think about what God is trying to teach me and am trying to have a positive attitude and healthy outlook on life. I just want to pack up my necessities, Major and drive home to my Mama. Sad isn't it? I am almost 30 and want to run home to my parents. I know I am making a difference and that God is using me, it's just so frustrating to feel this way. Hoping for a sunny day tomorrow...literal and figuratively.